Introduction

In this blog, I plan to write about myself and my life in a way that will hopefully relate in some way to everyone else. I certainly do not presume that everyone cares so much about my life or what goes on in my head that they are dying to read a blog about it. That most likely explains the lack of popularity with my other blog, www.peicesofel.blogspot.com. I saw Pieces as an endeavor experimenting with stream-of-consciousness memoir. However, I’ve come to realize that, what I see as creative experiment, most people—rightfully, I must admit—see as long-winded and overly ambiguous. I will continue in my literary experiment, and would love it if you checked up on it once in a while as well, seeing as how I put great effort into the creative-writing side of the project while slipping in vulnerable chunks among the ambiguity, and am sometimes (though rarely) proud of the results. However, I plan to also to keep up this blog. Something more straightforward and conversational. I plan to write about grief, and about joy, about God, about myself and my doings, and all of the above will generally be related back to lupus, and its effects on my life.

I have multiple motivations for keeping up with a blog about life as a young adult Christian female with Lupus. One of those motives comes from the deeper level of thinking I was forced to acquire after my diagnosis at 16 years old. I have been through quite a lot since then, dealing with lupus and the struggles it brings—physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, social…etc. I have some thoughts that some others might not, some experiences that may be uncommon, I may have fought some battles some others are fighting now or will have to in the future. Through all this I also have a Spiritual testimony which is added to daily as I continue to live with the struggles of lupus. In short, I thought some of the humble revelations I’ve had (or those on the way) might be worth sharing. For my own sake, at the very least.

Don’t worry, this blog won’t always be talking about lupus and being sick and depressing stuff like that. It will also be mostly-well-intentioned thoughts ranging from myself, to God, music, literature, horses, college, amateur art, various kinds of relationships, questions, memories, and whatever else I feel compelled to discuss.

I plan to post a variety of photos, video clips, music, and quotes to supplement the writing. Some posts will be more eloquent, while others may be more straight-forward. I plan for it to be an online scrapbook-journal, of sorts. In all of them, though, I will do my best to make it real and imperfect, like myself.

I would be glad if you were so inclined to read this blog’s updates now and then. However, with the knowledge that my story is far from exciting and I am an amateur writer at best, my expectations are not high. This is primarily for myself, an outlet sort of thing.

I will try to update this blog every two weeks—-maybe even once a week at times when the demands of life have more space between them.

Anyway, I hope you find this an interesting concept.

Thanks for reading,
El